Britney,

I don't know what's going on in your life... but I need you to understand something...

YOU ARE LOVED.

How have you helped me? You have served as such an inspiration to pull through things that you seriously saved my life... My life has included everything from living on the streets to attempting suicide... it's been a rough journey... and each day I wake up... if ever I think "I wish I wasn't here", I go to my computer and see what your up to; and when I see that you have pulled through another day, it makes me go "Britney, if you can do it... so can I".

In your past years, you have always said "I don't want to be someone people look up to; I just want to perform"... but though you may wish to not be an idol... you are... and for me, it's more than just because of your performances and career... it's because you have shown a genuine strength that is admirable on the ultimate level. When you have kids, your life changes... you want to provide for them the best life possible, and suddenly your world changes as they become your world... and through the small glance into your world that we have through photos, it's easy to see the joy that you bring to not only your fans, but to your children. I hope that you are proud of yourself... because the smiles on their faces run deeper than just laughter... the smiles you bring to your children is an appreciation for having a parent like you who genuinely loves them, and would do anything to give them it all.

From an outside perspective looking in, we could assume that losing your children is enough to bring you down (and understandably so)... and if that is not the issue, whatever it is, remember that when you are down, there is no-where to go but up.

Right now, there are a lot of rumors circulating that you have Bipolar. I don't know if this is true, but from me to you, I understand what you are going through. 6 years ago, I was hospitalized for trying to take my life, and when under mental evaluation, the doctors came to a diagnosis of a deep level of depression and bipolar. For me, hearing those words only registered one way "They think I'm crazy; mentally ill"... and over years I have come to understand it differently... an understanding I want to share with you. You are not ill. You are having a hard time, and if you have a diagnosis, whatever they are prescribing you whether it be medication or psychiatric treatment, it's not to alter you... its to help you through the hard times.

One more personal thing I want to share is that less than a year ago, I was sitting in an abandoned parking-lot... I tried to commit suicide again and overdosed on an uncountable number of pills. When I was in that parkinglot, I felt hopeless, and all I could think about what how I couldn't wait to not have to open my eyes again. I began humming to myself.... and shortly realized that the words that came from my mouth were lyrics of your music. It intrigued an inner conversation that led to thinking about how strong you were... gradually, my self-pity and doubt for life turned into a hope that I too could pull through. "I don't have a thousand lenses on me every waking hour" I thought to myself.... "and I don't want to be strong for anyone else... I want to be strong for me. It was thinking about you Britney that made me realize there was hope. People may have their problems with me, and I with them, but I remember what Britney said... at the end of the day, it's only with yourself". Britney... I hope that at the end of the day you are proud of who you are. You're not just a pop-star or a tabloid source during your runs to Starbucks... you are so much more.

The last thought I want to leave you with is this...

You have served as an inspiration to so many people to get through the hardships... I am begging you now to let us be your inspiration... see what you have done for us and take the satisfaction you have of knowing you saved my life (and probably the lives of others) and put that positive energy into feeling better and coming out stronger. You may think I'm another crazy fan like Chris Crocker... but Britney... I consider myself simply inspired. You don't choose who or what reaches to the deepest depths of your heart; God guides your soul there. I don't think I'm a crazy fan; I think I am someone who sees another aspect of what you do; yes, I hear the music, and yes, I see the fame... but I also FEEL the inspiration to keep on trying to make it through.

I sit here crying... and I don't even know exactly what's going on... but I cry because no person deserves to go through everything you are dealing with. Sometimes life deals an unfair hand... you don't chose to live the hardest times... but you chose whether you push through it or not... and I hope that you chose to keep on going. I pray that you will find happiness Britney... you deserve it.

Best of wishes,
Steven Binko

P.S.
I left you this in a video that you can also see: http://www.blogtv.com/Shows/5533/beVuZGFGZ2RGY_&pos=ancr